Oh To Not Be Pregnant...

I've decided to proceed with the scheduled induction tomorrow night at 7:30. I am unsure about what to expect which makes it hard for me to mentally prepare for what's to come. Since the birth class a couple months ago I have mentally going over what to expect, how I would cope and deal with it all in a natural birth sort of way. Without an appointment with my actual dr last week I feel uncertain and unprepared for what will be going on once I arrive at the hospital. I do know that it won't last forever and then there will be a baby so I guess I just have to focus on that. I am also concerned with how I will be treated by the hospital. I would like to know what is going on before they do it and I fear that they may not want to include me in a discussion about options before they just do something...this stemming from the dr. appt I had last week with whats-her-face. In my own little world, I was going to have this baby naturally but in a hospital for the convenience of medicine if something were to go wrong. My body doesn't respond well to meds in general...not even vitamins...the side effects are usually worse than whatever is wrong with me. I'm beginning to think that what I really wanted was to have the baby at a birthing center...
Anyway, time to put on my big girl pants and go do this thing. We'll be off to the hospital tomorrow night! We'll try to keep facebook updated. I can't believe I'm going to have a real life baby...